have been some of the hardest days I have experienced. My wife was checked in the hospital for Meningitis. It has been tough dealing the emotional side, less of the physical stuff. It’s like driving my 5 year old son to the sitters while I go to the hospital and run errands. I have been all over the place these last four days. That isn't really hard, just tiring. The hard part is seeing someone you care about suffer and not being able to do anything about it. You try and offer moral support but that isn't enough. Holding her hand and seeing her face during the spinal tap was murder. I kind of feel selfish talking about my pain, which is nothing compared to hers, but I needed some where to vent. I feel like such a fool for taking her for granted because you think she will always be there or any loved one for that matter. "I should have spent more time", "I should have done this or that", you go through all these thoughts but that doesn't change the reality of now. The point is, we all fuck up. Let's not dwell and do the best we can now. It makes you want to be a better person not for just them but for you. No regrets, right?
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